That's the newest word I have found to describe myself … becoming. The dictionary defines it as to come, change, or grow to be; to come into being. Such a lovely word, too, and heavy with meaning. Becoming ...
I sit here at my computer wanting … needing … to describe to you, to tell you what is churning in my soul. But I don't know what it is. I cannot seem to put my finger on it exactly.
Emotional. That word would describe my heart these days. So would the words searching, disturbed, questioning … those describe me these days as well. And I read those words I just wrote and it sounds so … dark. But I'm not in a dark place at all. If anything I'm running into marvelous Light! And as that wonderful song says, I feel as though I am being awakened from a long, deep sleep.
Awakened. Yes … that is the word that I am searching for. But to what? I'm not quite sure. And I know I'm not fully awake yet. No, no … It seems that I'm still very much asleep. I'm only just on the edge of waking from my sleep. There is a stirring deep in my soul. And wakefulness is coming. I can sense it. I know it's on its way.