It is hard work. You just don't know (or maybe you do) how incredibly difficult it is to get me out of me! And sometimes I think that it won't happen. Sometimes I think that my pride and self-centeredness have such deep roots that we (the Lord and I) will never get rid of them. I know as I sit here typing those thoughts that it IS, however, entirely possible. I guess it just seems like such a huge mountain that needs to move! And I guess that I feel like I don't have faith even as big as a tiny mustard seed! But I don't want to be defeated by this, I don't want to be beat. I want the victory that is mine through Christ over this!

So what does this have to do with my home? Well, I feel the same way about my home as I do about my heart. There are so many things swirling and whirling around inside my home and yard and garden! No … no tornadoes here (unless you count 2 very busy girls!) … just a lot going on! I am cleaning out and purging and decluttering like a mad woman. My local thrift store loves (or maybe hates) to see my hubby pull up to the door! I'm preparing my dwelling to be made over into a more inviting, comfortable, peaceful, happy, cheerful, welcoming place, both inside and out. But there is a lot to do! And it also seems so overwhelming! And I don't know what the final result will look like. It's also unknown. Sure, I have ideas and thoughts, but the final state is unknown.
And just as I sometimes want to retreat back into the old me, I sometimes want to just forget about making this dwelling of mine what I want it to be. I mean, sometimes I think "It's just a house, just a yard, just a garden… what's the big deal? You have nice shelter in a nice neighborhood … what more do you want?" But you know, it has nothing to do with discontentment or being unsatisfied. I believe that it is something that the Father has stirred up in my heart as a picture of what is going on inside of me. No more neglect and just surviving, both physically and spiritually … it's time to grow and thrive and shine and radiate God's love and grace and peace!
This will be a long journey, to be sure … thanks for walking it with me :)

Galatians 6:9
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