Transparency

I'm basically a transparent person. Oh, I've had that bite me in the fanny before, and I've been hurt from it in the past, but still I can say I'm pretty open. But as I have been doing this Seeking Him study God has been showing me some things about myself that are just ugly. Really. Many of the things I knew existed, but I didn't realize how deep they ran.

So I sit here on the one hand wanting to share with you all that God is doing in me, and on the other hand wanting to keep it all to myself. I have found this blog to be a great way for me to organize my thoughts about things I am learning. Many times God speaks to me about issues while I am writing about them. I love that. I love how He works. But still on these particular things I find myself not wanting to be quite so transparent with the world.

The past few mornings my time with the Lord has been so sweet and I have been writing in the margins of the study book everything that He is teaching me about me and about Himself. It's been a lot for me to wrap my head around, quite frankly.

I don't know. I'm not sure. I want to share because I know that 1) it blesses my friends and family (as you have told me in various ways) and b) because writing about it helps me organize and gain more insight. Hmmm. I'll have to think about this ...